Thirty days

We are 30 days into the medication.  We have changed it once and increased the dose once.  I am not resting any easier with it but Espen may be. 

Yesterday the teacher told me he is more focused and attentive.  This makes my heart happy.  If the medication does nothing but allow him to be present at school I will accept it... because he has not been present mentally....

I have made calls and we will have a screening at the Autism Diagnostic Clinic... we will see where we are at and where we go. 

Espen is signed up for swim club and will swim in a competition on October 12...  I am proud of him.  But it is not easy...he goofs a lot in the water.  He prefers to be submerged and that is no way to swim breaststroke!  But being submerged calms him so I am ok to sit and let him be underwater like a shark!

He is signed up to bike... he loves his bike.  Omaha BMX and recycle bike store has been amazing and full of great information.  He loves to go to NOWEAR compound and ride with the big kids.  He is roughly on the edge of dangerous.  But we will invest and encourage because it is what makes him happy and we can leverage this activity to our benefit. 

It is with these activities that I think he will be able to just be "accepted" for Espen... no one takes mention or note of the quirky way he behaves.  It makes me so happy to see the joy in him when he is doing an activity he thrives at.  And it makes the complaints about how hard school is easier because I can re-direct him to one of these fun activities! 

We have a long road ahead... and hard hard days ... but today the sun is shining and tonight we watch our 5 year old race his bike.... and we are OK with whatever happens next.